From being shy to being overly expressive.. just voicing out my thoughts and how I felt had given me negative consequences. It is always like this..Being blunt and honest always lands me in trouble. Makes me think that I should just keep everything inside me and not share my thoughts. I just had to know the truth, I had to know why, I must know what is inside the closed box, even if I know that by opening the box, it might jeopardize me or everything else, subsequently, a snowball effect. Would you do what I did? by opening the box? or would you just sit back and be safe by not knowing what's in the box? I do not regret my actions..

I would say that it is pretty challenging for me so far... at times I feel that being away from home for so long makes me feel so lonely.. with a small circle of friends.. so unlike me back home, when it seems that I would know almost everyone in town.. How times have changed..

Being on this journey away from home has made me discover that I am such a bitter person.. a pessimists, they say.. perhaps it is the environment that changed me.. or has i always been like that?? So much as I want to deny the fact that I am a pessimist, I can't because I know I always think of the negative possibility of things first, rather than the positive side like how we all should do. Life is a series of trials as we know it and I am only making it harder for myself right now. Wish I could change my point of view soon to bring out a happier me.

Being to self-conscious is another thing.. but it is how I was brought up to be in my country's system. Being in a foreign country where you can always speak your mind, and address elders or lecturers with their first name is quite a big change for me. I would feel really weird when I have to address the lecturers by their first name.. and still can't do that without feeling that I have done something wrong or bad.  This can be overcome if I don't continue to be shy.. but it takes time.

I guess they are a lot of changes that I should be doing, to make my life better.. but once I managed to change it, I would have to change it back or tone it down a lot when I go home for good..

I miss a lot of things.. I wish I could turn back time.  I have always wondered how will it be if I have taken other paths..

I have taken heaps of sacrifices in hopes of a better life in the future. Now... is it worth it?? Only time will tell, I want to make it BIG one day..just like everyone else and I hope I could.


status: emo

                                        Melissa range by Por Herchcovitch; Alexandre
                                        Made in Brazil


Every girl should have her pair of red shoes..

This one's material is like jelly, it's SOoooOOo comfortable when worn...and it moulds to your feet..

and it has red lace lined under the opaque synthetic material..











the downside is... it's retailed at the price of   NZD 119.99...

and yes.. I'm a sucker for shoes.. =(

status: I'm so freaking poor right now.. getting myself a credit card is not a very wise thing to do..

cheese crackers, brie cheese and cheese spread...













status: when will i ever finish my lab report n stupid assignments. arghhh

and alone... what to do... hmmmm

Prolly it's just me.. life in NZ isn't that great.

poos..

I made so many cakes during the winter holidays.. it's not even funny..

 

 

butter cake with cream cheese frost-->

 

 

<----oreo cheesecake

 

 

 

 

status: hungry

Tena koe Amanda

 

Seeking some one to mentor for Coml 111

 

Manaaki Pihipihinga is a mentoring programme for Maori and Pacific

students doing BA & BCA degrees, and is run by VUW's Student Services

Mentoring sessions are for an hour weekly or fortnightly and are

discussion times.  The mentor helps students with any questions they

have from lectures and general questions about the course, and makes

sure they are on the right track with assignments. Mentees have to be

Maori or Pacific but Mentors need not be.

 

I am writing to ask if you would be a Mentor for Trimester 2

 

You have clearly demonstrated your academic capabilities to be that of

a role model and most of you have been singled out individually by

lecturers as being a recognisable academic role model for our students

who may be struggling with a course that you have already passed!

The position will require you to meet up informally each week or on a

needs-based basis and 'kôrero' 'discussion'. You are not expected to be

a tutor, nor are you thought of as a 'buddy'. You will be a mentor,

sharing academic advice with your mentees and talking about lecture

content etc. The position is also voluntary, but that doesn't mean you

won't get anything to take away with you at the end.

 

There are benefits - a koha, written and verbal references, a

certificate and the chance to be recognised as a likely candidate for

tutoring. Did I mention it looks GREAT on your CV?

 

Give me a call, email, text, or a visit if you would like to be a

Mentor this year, or if you need more info. I, along with the Mentees

appreciate your tautoko! Support!

 

 

 

 

H.A F

Manaaki Pihipihinga Mentoring Programme

Assistant Coordinatior

Pipitea Campus RW 210

64-4 463 xxxx ext xxxx

status: flattered.. but I'm doing 4 papers this semester.. probably too much for me to handle right now.. Would definitely take it if I was asked to be a tutor..

OMG.. I feel so dumb.. argh..
what's new now?

We've got a new flatmate!~ a Kiwi girl named Wendy.. she seems pretty nice.

other than that.. life seems pretty gloomy as usual.. hectic Uni life.. so much to do, so little time.. all the stress and intimidations by the peers in the class... Social life equals to ZERO..
Friends... what friends?? so depressing.

and freaking terms test is like next week!!!! just kill me!~

sounds pretty sad.. oh well... guess that's how life wanted to test me.. in the process I think I've become a more bitter person.. One can hardly hear or see me smile or laugh..
it's like... yea.. so.. what's so funny aye? har har?

oh.. and i'm so broke.. no retail therapy for me then...

whatever

status: monologue

The memo pads are so cute!!~ Thanks for taking the time to post them to me..

Kah Leong made a brownie with Chao and my guidance.. OOoo I also decorated the frosting--a figure of someone doing a kungfu kick because Mike likes kung fu.. lol..










It was so yummy that everything is gobbled up in about 30 seconds.. but Mike saved the best part.............

Okay.. People have been saying how good it is bla bla.. so I've decided to try it. I can't remember all my friend's name at once to search for them and to add them individually...

SoooOoo.... dear friends who are on facebook.. Just look me up okay?? search for : Amanda Hay
There are heaps of Amanda Hay (s) out there so... Just look for the one studying at Victoria University of Wellington aight???

Dear friends,

If you are using AMO complete comfort plus contact lense solution. Please discontinue using it immediately, The product was recalled worldwide due to potential sterility issue with the product container. So, bring it back to the stores and return them.

Go here and here for more details.

On the other hand, friends in Malaysia.. do you know if TISS (product on the right) is still sold in Watsons or anywhere??

( Does my uniform makes me look like a kendo player?? I think so.. I kick ass~  lol)

So.. yesterday was my first time working in an event function..you know.. those  un-noticeable people that walk around with drinks in their tray offering drinks for people attending the function and then serving their 3 course meal and clearing their plates when they finish?? yeap.. so I was one of them..

The drinks are heavy as.... made my wrist hurt.. had like... 6 wine glasses and 2 flutes in the tray.. hmm it might be no problem for some people but i haven't been doing this for half a year or so now..

Anyway..I've worked for 7 1/2 hours.. nope the lunch didn't take that long.. it ended at about 3.30pm ish.. the tiring thing is the clean up!! Imagine that you have 100x of everything to wash and polish!! Starting with 2x entree plates, entree forks and knifes, main plates, main forks and knifes, dessert spoons, dessert cups and plates, and each person has 3 different glasses on their table.. not forgetting those wine glasses that we had poured at the start of the function where everyone at the function mingled around with drinks.. bla bla... yeah you guys can do the math! not forgetting heavy lifting of all the burning hot washed plates and cutleries into the bench for polishing.. it's damn hot and yes i've burnt my fingers a few times.. and my right thumb's skin peeled!! (just a small piece of skin)

Just some sneak peeks that do not do the justice..(the whole kitchen was full)





















                                        A dish-washer's nightmare


ah... lovely sight..creme brulee anyone???






















sigh.. one sad thing is I lost the mobile phone trinket that smei gave me before I come to NZ.. I think it must have been dropped somewhere when I was working. (mobile phone was kept inside the apron) so saddddddddddddddddddd.. It was a nice mobile dangling thingy..





status: the things we students do for some extra pocket money.. tsk tsk tsk...

It was nothing flash as I had my chemistry trisemester one final examination the very next day.. the day after my birthday dammit! >_<

BUT anyway...................

I had a lovely 3-course meal (dinner) with my flatmates and Adelyn in our flat. The yummy 3-course meal was prepared by Jyin. ah... lovely.. We started with entrees( samosas, mushroom soup, garlic bread) and for the mains we had lamb, mashed potatoes, mesculin salad and lastly, desert!! which is fruits with melted chocolate (think fondue) and not to forget my home made birthday cake~~ Tiramisu!!!! Thanks for taking the time to prepare it, JYin!!  =)  Everyone in the flat was well fed and we were sooo full after that!

*pictures will be posted later as they are still in Jyin's camera*

OOoo but I managed to take pictures of the presents I've received using my trusty old camera phone.

• 

lovely home made cookies from li hui~ Thanks for spending time making it for me although we have our exams everyday for the past week! It's yum!

• handmade key chain from Jo & Trong ( Trong is studying industrial design?? the keychain is made using a laser cutter in the university workshop) pretty cool~

• lovely piece of green stone necklace from Jyin and bro, KL

• Real Groovy voucher from Adelyn!!~ redeemable for CDs or T-shirt, etc..

• Superman toy and cat toy from our new wacky flatmates! Yosan + Mike.. They are the kids in the house.. lol

• And last but not least....  a lovely bouquet of pwetty pwetty and colourful flowers from buu.... awww...ain't it nice~ AND.....AND.........AND...............................a brand new SONY  T-20 in BLACK baby!~  lol.. yea I know the model was launched ages ago.. but what the heck.. at  least now I have a digicam to play with!! yay!    Thanks BuBu!~

ah... bliss.. I would also like to take the opportunity to thank my darlings back home and all around the world for the warm wishes through text, phone and friendster!!


status:   yesSSSS.. I know I am so so spoilt~~ hehe... 

yay!!!!!! so happy that I got myself a job (casual position) at the St James Theatre!!

" It is one of New Zealand’s finest Edwardian influenced theatres and a wonderful example of early 1900’s architecture. Inside, the auditorium was highly ornamental, featuring elaborate cherubs, plaster curlicues and painted and gilded lyres, horns, harps, dancing cupids and masks representing Comedy, Drama and Opera."

It is also the home of the Royal New Zealand Ballet!

check it out here and here.

I sent my CV in last Saturday and I got a call from one of the managers today (Tuesday). Arranged an interview right away today after my classes in Uni and the next thing I know, I was already selected based on my cover letter and CV!! yippee!!! The manager commented that I have a professional CV.. hehe.. I didn't know that my CV is actually good as I have been rejected by most retail shops.. but yea.. so happy that the manager actually liked it! so happy that I got selected!! although the pay is like the minimun wage.. =P

dum dee dum... hope that I would be able to learn more about the cultural and performing arts scene and how to make a good cup of coffee which is what Wellington is famous for... it's coffee and cafe lifestyle!!

ahem.. that also means that... I won't be going back to Malaysia this winter break!!!  boo.. but dear friends back home, don't forget to miss me!~ I'll be back home soon enough. =)

status: ok.. that's enough hoo-hah.. back to reading for my finals... 3 more days to go!!!! arrghhhhhh

SHOULD I GO BACK TO MALAYSIA for winter break (ONE MONTH) ??

i've got like 5 weeks of holiday!! starting 2nd June to 8th July..

and I can't get a job here anyway coz no one wants to hire me..bla bla..

how how how.... the air ticket is so expensive.. but I miss my friends.. didn't contact them much.. wonder if they have forgotten me.. sigh........

jyin said I should go back coz at least I'll be happy in that 1 month and come back to all the torture of uni life here... with no friends to call my own.. no friends that you can just call out and hang around talking nonsence.. sigh....life's just pathetic.. so not like how I have anticipate it.. boo.. 

I'm soOOOooo tempted...

heard that you guys in Malaysia are having your uni break as well aye???
sooOOooo nice!!!!!!!!!!

arrghhhh... I'm so tempted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so dear friends.. help me make up my mind please...( ahem i guess only a tiny puny number of my friends actually read my multiply.. but oh well... )

status: should I??

totally kills my weekend every week!~ argh... Finals are coming at the end of May without any study week given.. Oh mY Gawd~~i'm gonna  die.... Can't celebrate my 21st on the 31st because of my finals.....How saddddddddd.. boo..

21st is a pretty important number in one's life?? crossing to aduldhood.. can't really rely on parents anymore.. yadda yadda.. who am I kidding.. am and will always be a mummy's girl.. and a kid at heart..

and guess what.. I have 5 freaking weeks of holiday after my finals!~ arghhh!! what should I do... Other friends would still be having their finals.. get a job?? not easy as employers here value EXPERIENCE and most of them prefer locals aka kiwis..or asian borned kiwis??? boo.. Don't wanna work as a wait staff again! its such a torture...

Wanted to go back to Malaysia!!  kinda felt so distanced from my friends back home.. but then.. air fare is so freaking expensive!!!~ =( so can't go back home...Mum just asked me to try to get a holiday job... geee.. she never asks me to go back home..she reckon I should save the money for travelling at the end of the year.. >_< 

status: i drink more tea than water staying up finishing reports...



 

golden bunny under the lamp shade

golden bunny with its red bow and bell

how does it look like? it has a similar size of a kiwi fruit, but it doesn't have the 'furry' skin.
It has a shiny and smooth green colour skin.. the insides of a feijoa fruit.. pretty awesome..isn't it?

how do you eat it then? aren't those just seeds? oh well.. just eat it like how you will eat a kiwi fruit!

it's sweet and has this really fruity taste.. I've had feijoa drinks before.. but this is the first time I've seen the fruit and eaten it fresh!.. yum!!

status: a little expensive but a must try!..

It was ages ago( in Feb? )... lol. been really lazy ( super super lazy..) and busy doing last minute reports and assignments....
lovely and sunny day~ heaps of people around















cuba carnival night parade by night.........



best picture of all... the " mobile loo !!" lol

status: am having Easter break now.. so time to revive my already dead journal..